Hello fellow homosapien's. If you don't know what that means I just called you a human so don't worry there was no inappropriate name calling.... yet. So still as confused as ever. I'm not sure I will ever not be confused. Interesting things happened this weekend. My uncle Jimmy died on this weekend twenty years ago and that really sucked for my mom. On top of that my dad was mowing his five archers of land and he flipped the mower over on himself. Yes I know its an odd thing to do and so many people keep asking me "How can you flip a riding lawn mower?" Well its possible. Get a steep enough incline and it will happen. My dad broke 9 ribs and he also fractured his lower back. So that was a fun update to us. Does anyone realize how much an ambulance ride is? Well his was around $10,000. I know I know there are people out there reading this and going "Well as long as he got to the hospital alright that's all that should matter". You're right that's all that really matters until you find out how much you have to pay for two nights in the ER, the ambulance ride, the nurses, the pain meds he was put on, the doctors, and his hospital food. It's a ridiculous amount! I mean there is so much that goes into treating a person in the hospital. If you get hurt its about equivalent of buying a brand new house to fix a couple of broken bones. I feel so bad for my dad though. He is such an active person and not being able to move is really messing him up. But enough of the depressing news. I hope everybody is having a good labor day weekend. It's pretty much a farewell weekend to summer and you start to  realize that soon there will be snow and cold and all of the trees and grass will be dead. I don't mind winter. All of my nicer clothes are winter clothes because I am always in school and I like to look fairly decent at school in case I can pick up some nice looking guy. I'm joking. I am still in love with my ex and it would be unfair to go out with somebody that actually likes me when I know my heart wouldn't be into it. Speaking of my ex I am such a horn dog. He's two states away and he can still turn me on by how he talks to me and just simple pictures of him smiling. I am such a sap. I miss him and I am deprived of certain pleasures. It's not like I couldn't go out to a bar and get somebody to satisfy my needs I am just not that type of girl. A one night stand is not what I'm looking for. I want to wake up to somebody whose as happy to see me as I am to see them. When I woke up with my ex he would wrap his arms around me still half asleep and kiss my neck. Then he would whisper to me not to go. Oh that was the best feeling. When somebody wants you. Just like Jason Derulos' new song Want You to Want Me I want somebody to want me. By the way that was not an endorsement for his songs or him. I just think he is VERY good looking and I like his voice. But I want somebody to want me. I mean who wouldn't? You want to find somebody that loves you for you and makes you excited to wake up next to them everyday. I want that back but I don't know when I'll find it. I guess nobody does. Its like Russian roulette you hit a bunch of duds and then one day you get one that blows your mind. That was a very morbid way of explaining myself but in a weird way it kind of works. Anyway I have to drive back to college so I hope you all had a safe and exciting weekend!! Call your parents if you can and just say hello. You never know when they won't be there for you anymore. Take it from me a parent in the hospital with a broken back sure does make you wake up.