Looks like my life isn't very interesting to many people. Actually no people at all. No views for awhile. Everybody has their own lives to live though. They have work, school, kids, spouses, friends, lovers, or maybe they don't. If they don't I hope they will find someone. Being alone is never fun.

 Today was my birthday. I woke up to 0 text messages and 0 phone calls missed. I got up fairly late since my only class today started at 1:30. But I was lucky enough to wake up to one of my good friends. My roommate is crazy she's funny and beautiful. I couldn't have picked a better one. All morning she kept popping into my room screaming "It's your birthday!". It was the best alarm clock I could have asked for. She is such a great person and it makes me feel lucky to have someone like her in my life. She has been through a lot with me in the year that we have known each other. I am so grateful I met her. She's about as crazy as me and we have a total blast together. Hence this morning we went through our motions and she was nice enough to make sure I was up and ready for the day before she left.

By the time I finished my morning rituals I went back to check my phone and all of my friends and family had blown it up. The happy birthday wishes were piling up. It made my day. Then my older brother Rob put a post on Facebook that almost made me cry. We are not the lovey dovey type of siblings. When we see each other we don't hug or even touch. Him and I have just never been that way. When I read his post I realized that he loves me more than I thought. He wrote that he was proud of me and that I was the kindest most caring person that he knows. That means so much to me. I have looked up to him my entire life. He is the reason I pushed myself so hard. I always worked for him to be proud of me, for him to be proud that I was his sister. Yes he can be a total jerk. He can be selfish and mean but he can also be sweet. He has this soft side not many people see. When I see him around children or somebody who is mentally impaired there is a whole other side to him. The gentle way he treats them and the patients that he has with them is astounding. That's my favorite side of him. He has been hurt so much during his life. He was hurt by our dad, his first love, basically anybody that he let close to him and it breaks my heart to see him hurt. I am scared he will miss out on the love of his life because he will be too scared to let her in. I couldn't take him being alone for the rest of his life. He deserves the best. I want everybody to find their true love. To find a love that baffles you, astounds you, even takes your breath away. Its out there. I know it is. I can feel it. I can see my brother with the love of his life and a whole bunch of little Robs running around. That would make him so happy I know it would. If he could just let someone in. I hurt when he hurts. I hurt when anybody around me is hurting because I know how they feel or I can empathize with their situations. It sucks to hurt but that means when you find something good that you can appreciate it. I hope all of you find your true loves. Sounds corny I know but I hope you find that one person that is there for you no matter what. If you don't have anybody right now I am here for you. I realize that that might sound kind of creepy but its not meant to be that way. No matter where you are or who you are I care about your happiness. I don't want to see anybody hurt but its a fact of life it will happen. Just wait and sooner or later the pain and tears will become bearable and then you will wake up one day and the hurt will just be a dull ache in your chest. Stay strong. You are a good person and you deserve the best. No matter what you have been through in life everybody has good in them. You just have to be patients enough to find it.